I get this inexplicable, natural excitement when it comes to making people happy. It’s this strange, yet fun, giddiness that just forms a ball in the center of my body and floods outward at a faster speed than I can control. Then it’s smiles for days that help me through whatever negative moments I let affect me.
Cliche is an understatement when it comes to what I’m about to proclaim. Yet, here it is anyway. My ultimate goal in life is simple. I want to help people. I want to make people happy. I want to help people see the value they have within themselves and I want them to understand that life is a journey. It’s not about finding yourself. It really, truly is about creating yourself. There’s no rewind. There’s no fast forward button. There’s just the here and now. There’s this moment… when we can decide to smile and laugh so as to enjoy the fact that we’re alive - and that’s enough to celebrate right there. We’re here and we’re surrounded by this incredible adventure. Create yourself. Be happy.
I apologize now. I’m unfortunately really talented at that unruly thing called “word vomit”. I promise I’ll get better at it. ;)
Anyway. I’ll return to the point of this blog post. I want to make others happy. I’ve been on this crazy journey of discovering what passions are my future. What do I really enjoy doing on a daily basis? What do I want as a part of my every day life? What is the overall theme of my own personal joy? It turns out that the answer was simple.
All of you.
Making you - that’s right… YOU… whether you’re a total stranger or a friend or a family member or a co-worker or previous someone to my life - making you happy is the over-arching theme of my personal joy. That was the easy part. Then I had to figure out how to best use my talents and skills to incorporate that theme into a career of some sort. There’s the hard part.
For about 18 months, I was increasingly involved in creating a vision for brides and grooms and making that oh-so special day that much more special for them. I am so incredibly thankful for my time learning the ins and outs of lighting (and some small audio) for weddings and events in Nashville. My time within that industry taught me massively imperative lessons about responsibility, perseverance, true beauty, respect, leadership, and much more. I met some incredible people who I am quite blessed to still know and have a relationship with. I learned a few things about myself as well. Looking back, I strongly believe one of the biggest mistakes I’ve made was leaving that industry and one company five months ago. Having said this, I cannot (more like will not) allow myself the word “regret” when it comes to the decision I made. I left the industry for several personal reasons, and one was to pursue the old, but still current, passion that led me to this city in the very beginning. Fortunately, I was blessed with the chance to use my degree at a company that I am proud to call my employer.
Strangely, only a couple months into this new job, I found myself constantly looking back at what I had left behind. I craved to go back. More than anything else. This is something I didn’t expect. And I realized that my time away from the industry is probably a deciding factor in something I will explain shortly.
If I’ve learned anything since I first moved away from home in 2008, it’s that you have to grab hold of things and feelings like that and hang onto them like you’ve never held on before. I found the following quote on one of my many Pinterest strolls, and it fits perfectly.
"If you can’t stop thinking about it, don’t stop working for it."
When I uncovered a deep, admittedly frightening passion to make musicians’ dreams come true, I went through six months of decisions that led me to this very city. I picked up my entire life and moved it twice just to follow that passion and because I did not want to let it go. It was something new and something strong in my heart. Why wouldn’t I follow it, right? I ended up here, and it was undoubtedly the best decision I’ve ever made.
With that being said, I’m feeling that passion again. That old passion has not died. It is just a bit sidelined right now. It’s a bench warmer for a while. This new passion is something that directly incorporates my ultimate goal in life into a career. Well, hopefully. (My ultimate ULTIMATE goal involves a lot of charity work that incorporates music, but that’s an entirely different story that will probably be word vomit for another blog post on another day.)
Anyway. I’ve got that feeling of intense passion again, and it’s exhilarating. I truly hope everyone gets to experience this kind of passion. It’s something incredible.
I want to become a wedding planner, or an event planner in general. If I can be a pivotal part of making a bride and groom’s special day THE most special it could possibly be, then I will just…. I can’t explain it. I was blessed with the chance to experience deep, real love for the first time in the past couple years. It’a a beautiful, inspiring thing. So… helping that kind of love flourish AND making an entire room of people happy? Pssh. How perfect is that?
I was asked to be a part of an extremely adorable proposal for a co-worker, and this is really what sparked my discovery. (Thanks, Barrett, if you read this.) Watching his excitement and his fiance’s emotions during that “pop the question” moment made my heart just explode with joy and inspiration. Then I was able to use my knowledge and experience from my previous jobs to help them with their planning process. Now my good friend Ashley and I are their day-of coordinators. I cannot contain my excitement. I’ve also been able to reconnect with my absolute favorite wedding planner and her team, and she has been so wonderful to me and my new adventure. I helped her out during a recent wedding, and it was so much fun to see her side of things. Now I am helping her at another wedding soon. As she has told me, “Just jump in.” On the other side, I am so lucky to have formed a relationship with the Event Coordinator at one of my favorite Nashville event venues during my time in the industry. She is just wonderful to be around, and I am so extremely thankful to her for allowing me the chance to pick her mind and volunteer my time to learn more about it all from her. I am so excited. I have also been meeting with some truly fantastic professionals in the industry, including my old bosses, and it just serves to continue inspiring me. So many people in the business of making others happy are willing to help me do the same. Who would’ve thunk it? ;) Totally kidding, obviously.
I’m trying my hardest to 110% dive into this new passion. I want to learn every single aspect of the industry and how it works from each angle so that I can make myself the best planner I can possibly be. Luckily, I’ve got a leg up on a lot of these, thanks to my previous experience. Why, though, right? Well, why not? It can only mean that I’ll be able to create and bring to life and reality the best possible moments for a bride and groom on their special day. And THAT is all that matters, truthfully.
Just this past weekend, two more of my co-workers got engaged, and I immediately wanted nothing else but to extend my experience and knowledge and help them as much as possible. It’s so surreal to feel that deep, deep desire to help make these people in my life as happy as possible. Nothing else. Seeing others around me so happy about a part of their lives is truly something to behold. And I just hope I get to help in their big, special day.
And so begins another adventure. As another stroll on Pinterest showed me, the following quotes just personifies a truth.
"There’s a great, big, beautiful tomorrow."
"Today is the perfect day to start living your dreams."
"The best feeling of happiness is when you’re happy because you’ve made somebody else happy."
And I’ll leave it at that. My apologies for this super long, rambling post. I’ve just felt the need to share my thoughts lately. And my rambles seemed best in a blog post. Hopefully that doesn’t sound crazy. (Not that it matters… if you’ve made it this far, you obviously don’t think I’m too crazy…… right?)
I’ll leave you with this reminder. And I’ll be back.
"Do what makes your soul shine."